I honestly thought about going to church this Sunday, but it’d been so long I forgot which pair of Sundays held the 8 AM service. (was it 1st and 3rd? or was that 2nd and 4th?)

So Saturday I headed to Lowes to scout knobs for my cabinets, and came up on this traffic jam that preceeded an unusual non-workday wreck. And my phone rings, unfamiliar number. the convo went a lil something like this:

Me: Hello
Them: Hey, Stephen it’s *a church member*, Where you been?
Me: Uh, been taking a break… (knots form in stomach)
Them: Haven’t seen you around, got some work for ya!
Me: You got some web stuff for me to do? (knots)
Them: Got some work for ya!
Me: You can always email it to me…
Them: Or, you can come to church.

At this point, i had just passed the accident and didn’t get a good rubberneck going.
I did not make it to church. Sunday I had a missed call from another unfamiliar number. The voicemail let me know it was the pastor. I called him back because I really wanted him to know what my deal was firsthand.

My points were:

  • i’m not ready to join or run anything
  • i’m claustrophobic in the 11AM full capacity services
  • i’m not comfortable with being sweated repeatedly to join a ministry/ministries
  • i’d like to be somewhat anonymous but realize i never was, even when i thought i was

    • I also had a problem with using resources @ my job when asked and having to enlist the aid of my manager who had sole access to those resources. So he apologized on behalf of himself and some members. to be continued.